know you who me

im down.

things happen. and then they. the people. the friends. make me feel like a bad person.

again. i dont think i am a bad person. so why is it that this past week. over and over.

this.



maybe im not a good person. but i think i am. maybe i am to sensitive. maybe im not sensitive enough.

i see them as misunderstandings. but common misunderstandings may mean that they are not misunderstood. they may mean i am understood.

reality.

or maybe i need to make new friends or spend more time with the other friends who understand.

its not been easy.

i don't know how i am standing.

3 months ago i said if anything else happens i am goign to need to be locked up.

2 months ago i said i cant take anything else bad.

1 month ago i was such a wreck i left you on the side of the road.

that made me feel a little better.

then this month... really???

i thought 2009 was supposed to be a new year.

new beginning.

so why are theses misfortunes carrying on.


AHHHHH


i am sulking and feeling bad for myself.

get over it.

move past.

rant.

shake it off.




spin. spin. twirl. drop. show me drop. oh yes. spin. spin. reach. reach. grab. PULL. curtsy. flowers/flowers. curtsy. flowers/flowers. exit stage left.





keep on keeping on?

little girl lost

first does anyone know where to find a voodoo/witch doctor? i feel like there is a hex on me. (if anyone is actually reading this that is)





time and time again when i dont think things could get worse they do...

is it me?

i dont think i am a bad person, in-fact i make an effort to be a good person.

karma?

no i would have to have been a really really bad person for this kinda karma.

on a separate note... i am lost... little girl lost








I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down
I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down
I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down
I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down


had to get that out. on the radio tonight.

options.

- stay in boston... not leave my job... maybe one day do something

- move to brooklyn (with jenna which would be heaven)

-move to buffalo... if i go stay there so many good things. (mayeb we could like take a class together)

1. i would be with vanessa (maybe we could like take a class together)
2. buffalo is dead so i could stay in all the time working on my art.
3. i would be able to same money cause in buffalo you have have a feast for $7
4. doughnuts

i have more to say.... sleep though...
i have more pros and cons.
wow eyes shutting...

ps ask me about the water i slept with. or the glass in slept with. or the water i slept in.









do u believe in dinosaurs.

teardrops keep falling off my head