im down.
things happen. and then they. the people. the friends. make me feel like a bad person.
again. i dont think i am a bad person. so why is it that this past week. over and over.
this.
maybe im not a good person. but i think i am. maybe i am to sensitive. maybe im not sensitive enough.
i see them as misunderstandings. but common misunderstandings may mean that they are not misunderstood. they may mean i am understood.
reality.
or maybe i need to make new friends or spend more time with the other friends who understand.
its not been easy.
i don't know how i am standing.
3 months ago i said if anything else happens i am goign to need to be locked up.
2 months ago i said i cant take anything else bad.
1 month ago i was such a wreck i left you on the side of the road.
that made me feel a little better.
then this month... really???
i thought 2009 was supposed to be a new year.
new beginning.
so why are theses misfortunes carrying on.
AHHHHH
i am sulking and feeling bad for myself.
get over it.
move past.
rant.
shake it off.
spin. spin. twirl. drop. show me drop. oh yes. spin. spin. reach. reach. grab. PULL. curtsy. flowers/flowers. curtsy. flowers/flowers. exit stage left.
keep on keeping on?
