because of all the bad stuff i feel sad when i am happy.
guilt?
not that the happy has been coming that often but the little joys in life like clothing and food and friends and other materialistic things just dont have the same effect on me that they used to.
reality?
no.
ijust.ijust.ijust.ijustwanttocryandforittobeover.
but not over over.to get threw it and for it to be better.
now the crazy comes.
its been coming to often.
will you be there for me if something really bad happens?
dont look at me like that.
babbblllleee......
i dont want to be a control freak.
i just want the people i care about the be the most healthy they can be.
ps i want my fucking candy by 4:00pm sunday, im leaving town!
